Never Was

by Anxious Arms

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released August 4, 2017

Anxious Arms is:
Kyle Bolla - Guitar, Bass, & Vocals
Trent Tanzi - Drums

Recorded June 16-21 by Connor Rodenbaugh at Sound Heart Collective
Mixed & Mastered by Connor Rodenbaugh
Additional Vocals/Guitar/Programming - Connor Rodenbaugh
Album Photography/Design - Tim Shill, Stewart Parkhurst
Moral Support - Christian Burnett

Thank you to all of you who have come out to a show, listened to our music or supported us in another way. We hope you enjoy Never Was.


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Anxious Arms Sacramento, California

Rotting in the rust.

Sacramento, CA

Sunday Drive Records

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Track Name: Gone Home
We once had it all, we once had all we ever wanted and don’t forget it.

All this time to make amends, but it never meant a thing.

All you wanted was admiration, a place worth wanting all the same.
Don’t they ever say?
All you wanted for, all you needed for, all you had has gone away. Don’t they ever say?

We had it all, but did it ever mean anything for this broken heart that you have?
Never lost any friends, never lost any sleep, I watch the light come in and what never was will never be.

You wanted to stay the same, it never stays the same.
Track Name: A Walk In The Dark
Today i recognized the change of the coming days that were always the same. On the postcard written in your blood “…if only for once it was never enough.”
Always the same.

You can’t always forget those things you should have missed. Coming down from the heights you have wished. These things were clear, now I know, you had it once and you can’t let it go.
Never enough, it was never enough.

Running away and coming down from the heights you had known. This had a time, but now it’s grown old. I can’t be what you want, but now you’ll see.

Where’d it go.

You can’t let it go.

I can see it coming, I can see the change.
Track Name: Breaking A Picture Frame
Did you know, love is a condition with your back against the wall? One day, I will have the guts to spill it all.

In this place I’ll see what it means to you and me, I have lost the words to say “I’m sorry” for all the ways I felt inside, can you break me one more time so I can hear you calling.

Although I’ve said enough, it won’t mend a broken trust, you still walked all over me, I’m left wanting to believe.

All over me, all over me.

You don’t have the right to walk all over me.
Track Name: Somehow, They Will Know
How did they know?
How did they figure you out?
How did they know, and what did they find?
Don’t forget all you have.
Don’t forget.

When did the light lose its spark, did it go while you were there?
Did the pressure take the one who wouldn’t have a care.
Did they ever know that you, they can never figure you out.
Just because it was you they had to find.

Its not all the same, it not all your fault. Its just safe and sound in your heart.

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